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Friday, May 20, 2011

The hangover...

I need very little persuading to drown my stresses in a gluttony of food, and yesterday's "spot" provided me the perfect excuse.  I have been following a healthy eating plan (can't say diet in front of the girls) for 2 weeks and I've lost 7 pounds. I was already breathing a little better and moving around a little easier. Its like every cell in my body was starting to release some of the fluid...and then, that damn "little spot"...

So I hit the Cheezits, Starbursts and some Easter chocolate and then topped it off with an extra dose of sleeping pill...Guess how I feel today? - ummm, Roadkill...
I slept until noon - thanks to that extra little pill...when I woke my back was as stiff as a board, and I think every cell has filled back up with fluid - good times!

But rather than wallow in more self-pity, I got back on the wagon foodwise and drowned myself with water today...At least I stopped the cycle...

I am feeling much better about the "little spot"...many of you shared my concern and also agreed that I should repeat the MRI periodically...Dr. Spell has the results, knows my concerns and agrees with retesting, so I feel like everything is under control.  According to the neurologist, sometimes people who experience migraines develop a spot on the brain - I'm just not any old migraine sufferer since that whole cancer debacle!  But modern medicine and a deluge of prayers have gotten me this far,  I trust neither will fail me now!!

 This week I realized that the two most important beauty products are under eye concealer and an eyebrow pencil. Since mother's day, I've been wigless - and its wonderful. Even better is that Morgan is getting more comfortable with the look. I think she only looked at me twice this week with the "you aren't going outside like that" face. Let me tell you, when your hair is 1/2 an inch - a big smile is not an accessory, its mandatory. Who doesn't look better with a smile, right?  So I'm polishing my smile, drinking my water and starting over on the diet...

We all deserve a second chance...


Hope you have a fantastic weekend filled with laughs!

5 comments:

Ali said...

Love that philosophy! I think you are an amazing example to your girls and to everyone who knows you. And with a smile like yours, who even notices the hair?

Jeanne Pellerin said...

I could never pull off half inch hair! I don't have the nose for it! ;)

lilly riera said...

Oh your post made me feel better today... I too blew a good week of healthy eating. Pain regarding old radiation issue had me down... Will swipe your sign on this post to use on my own blog, hope you don't mind... Thanks for reminding me that thankfully, we have a tomorrow to "try again" I love you... barely know you yet feel like we are two survivor sisters who love to scrap... keep the chin up and know you are helping others...

Jenn said...

keep up the positivity! fill your body with those healthy foods...and just remind yourself that they are helping to keep "little spots" little or null... hang in there and keep smiling!

Debby Schuh said...

I've been traveling so much and just caught up on your blog... it sounds like you're doing good! So happy about the news that your treatments are done! I gained weight in all my travels... didn't let a pastry go uneaten, but now I'm trying to go back to the healthy eating I was doing before. Hang in there... it will be worth it!!
lots of love and continued prayers!