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Saturday, November 27, 2010

the elves screwed up!

CANCER was NOT on my Christmas list, but since there is no return line at Walmart for that special gift...It's mine all mine :)


So I have Diffuse Large B-cell Lymphoma - an aggressive Lymphoma - agrressive means it grows quickly - I've probably only had it a few months, but it also means if caught early it is curable. According to my Oncologist, this is a garden variety Non-Hodgkins lymphona.

On next week's To Do List:

PET scan which will show us all the places that have cancer - we know it is in my liver, lymph nodes and spleen, but we want to find them all (Wednesday)
Surgery to insert the Chemo Port (Thursday or Friday)
Some test to make sure my heart can withstand the Chemo
Chemo School (Friday)

December 6 should be my first Chemo Treatment. I will have Chemo for at least 18 weeks, longer if the cancer is stubborn!

Most Important Point- This is curable!

Shane and I are meeting with a Social Worker to figure out the best way to discuss this with the girls - they haven't heard the "C" word yet

I choose to ignore hair loss right now...but Bald is Beautiful, right???

When I feel it is appropriate, I will post updates on my blog, but I don't intend to get all sappy and weepy (not saying that won't happen - it's just not what I intend now).

For now, I dried my tears, put on a dress, and called GiGi to help Shane and I with Avery's Sleepover Birthday Party - after all - the show must go on!

17 comments:

Anonymous said...

There are no words - you and your family are in my prayers. You're a tough cookie, no doubt you'll beat the crap out of it. All my love, Noodle.

Amy Muffoletto said...

You have been in my prayers... Love you bunches... You got this... Have faith!

Jeanne Pellerin said...

You and your precious family are in my prayers.

Kathleen Loughran said...

With a gorgeous face like yours - yes bald will be stunningly beautiful. I prayed before I commented and will continue to do so. Fight like a girl sweetie - you WILL triumph over this. Hugs!

lilly riera said...

I am an old time cancer survivor, had it in 1968 at 5 years old called Wilms tumor at a time when it was incurable, ha to that! 45 years later here I am had two beautiful children who are not grown....
Laugh in the face of cancer, be strong as you seem to be....It won't be easy, give yourself time to cry if you need to, crying is not a bad thing, and I know as all mothers are, you may be scared of all of this but your main concern is for your little girls.... prayers your way and as the saying goes.... FIGHT LIKE A GIRL!

Terri said...

I agree, there are no words...but as the best teechur I ever had, I'm sure you'll scrap it!
Love to you, Ironman and the girls. If there is anything I can do, don't hesitate...smooches!

cheepincharge said...

In times of trouble or joy - God is the same. He loves you and he is with you.
I pray that he will give your heart peace, that he will give those treating you wisdom and guidance, and that you will be surrounded with love and support.

nicole petersen said...

there are no words. but, i believe can beat this. you are on my prayer list.

Ashley said...

Cancer Sucks, but I <3 my sister's Oncalogist!

Mel said...

You are in my prayers and if there is anything at all that I can do or help with please let me know. You are going to be the most beautiful bald girl I know.

Debby Schuh said...

You know I"ll be thinking of you daily and praying for strength and healing and all good things!

Ash Marie said...

this sucks to hear...like a lot...but you are a fighter and you can do it! Praying for a healing!

Donna Jones said...

My heart stopped as I read your blog. The C word isn't nice but the way you are seeing it will make all the difference in the world. Outlook, positive attitude and most of all Faith & prayers really work. You will be in my thoughts & prayers every day. If you need help with anything let me know. Let people help and save your energy for fun things like scrapbooking and playing video games and watching movies with your family. Fight to WIN!!!

Ami Marsell said...

Heather - If anyone can kick this things Ass - It's you. I'm not sure that it picked the right person if it was expecting to win. Actually, I'm positive it didn't. I have always thought and said you are so unbelievably strong - I still believe that to my core. We are thinking of you always and are here for you and Shane and Mel and the girls for anything you need - ever. You just say the word and we're there. You are family after all. Call if you ever want to talk, shoot the shit, piss off Jase, whatever ;O), that's what we’re here for. You keep being you and everything will be the way it is supposed to be. You strength and courage is unbelievable at all times, but especially now it just blows me away. Do everything you can to hold on to that through all of this. And as you say best – keep on laughing sister – it will make you well.

We love you!!! xoxoxoxoxoxo
Ami & Jason

Anonymous said...

Keeping you in my prayers.

Anonymous said...

My dear I had 2 daughters diagnosed the same day, Drs. are ok, but surround yourself with people that cannot only pray,but that have faith to believe with u 4 your healing, God is know respect of persons, He did it 4 my girls He doit 4 u ,please read scriptures on healing,pray and then listen 4 Him to speak back ,our church willa also b praying, if there's anything I can do to help,Contact; Sandy/ I'm Carol.

Connie said...

Heather, no doubt God has a sense of humor, we are just all trying to find it in the midst of the turmoil. Know that all our prayers are with you and your family and I know you well enough to know you will kick ass with this disease. Prayers coming to you daily friend.
Love, Connie